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Rawr x3 nuzzlez how tha fuck is yo dirty ass pounces on you you so warm o3o notices you gotz a funky-ass bulge o: one of mah thugss aiiight ;) nuzzlez yo' necky wecky~ murr~ hehehe rubbies yo' bulgy wolgy you so big-ass :oooo rubbies mo' on yo' bulgy wolgy it don't stop growin .///. kisses you n' lickies yo' necky daddy likies (; nuzzlez wuzzlez I hope daddy straight-up likes $: wigglez booty n' squirms I wanna peep yo' big-ass daddy meat~ wigglez booty I gots a lil itch o3o wags tail can you please git mah itch~ puts paws on yo' chest nyea~ its a seven inch itch rubs yo' chest can you help me pwease squirms pwetty pwease fucked up grill I need ta be punished runs paws down yo' chest n' bites lip like I need ta be punished straight-up good~ paws on yo' bulge as I lick mah lips I be gettin thirsty. I can go fo' some gin n juice unbuttons yo' baggy-ass pants as mah eyes glow you smell so musky :v licks shaft mmmm~ so musky drools all over yo' ding-a-ling yo' daddy meat I wanna bust a nut on fondlez Mista Muthafuckin Fuzzy Balls hehe puts snout on balls n' inhalez deeply oh god im so hard~ licks balls punish me daddy~ nyea~ squirms mo' n' wigglez booty I gots a straight-up boner fo' yo' musky goodnizz bites lip please punish me licks lips nyea~ sucklez on yo' tip so phat licks pre of yo' ding-a-ling salty goodness~ eyes role back n' goes balls deep mmmm~ moans n' suckles

21/08/26
eya

idk nx2 px2 g i anyone else who knows me from there

eternity's been alright

not sure what led to our complete disconnect but i guess it's mutual

we all have our own lives to have 
so sorry if this is just misinterpreting a standard
I'd just rather not forget and ignore so easily

whatever this is feels widespread enough to acknowlege
shit happened with j 2 years ago god blegh eugh
never knew what he said and your reactions were dissociative
was just trying to know him, i don't feel i was ever overly intrusive and i sure as hell 
never obsessed over him. 10 year friend just threw a tantrum over practically nothing
was enough to get fkn cancelled i guess
this was like 3 boring ass faggy ass interactions
was and am fine pissing off after this

i can't get over how this reaction just sucks
thought we were friends
i don't think i want anything to do with any of you anymore
i dunno what to do, guess it's fine right now
all i'd ever wanna say is i don't want you treating people like this
handle me with gloves, pretend my words are useless
like i can see the deliberate avoidance
whatever the fuck i am to you anymore isn't me
i love myself more than that

hope you're well. adulthood's been sweet and i'd never go back
hope you heard my music. it is in fact about some of this shit and i think it's dope
i couldn't think of a kinder more meaningful way to tell you to go fuck yourselves

eat my ass <3

-a

22/08/26 some thoughts on vrchat since i've cracked 100 hours and it's only been about a month. would've been more if my quest lasted longer than an hour unplugged so much goddamn fun and it's just "load unity files" i've been to raves, joined communities and kinda figured out how i want to enjoy this shit 75% of my time has been just worldhopping and listening to music also been the content of my streams idk i find it really satisfying to think about why someone would want to make a world what they did to make it pretty and long-period tolerable also a handful that are just conceptual experiences, peices resonating themes present in vr escapism god they make it so pretty also another interest in how people use avatars and how it reflects them the game has goddamn synthetic, independently developing cultures out of "exist in vr" i've been using a rikkor as my main avatar and just recently found that they have lore like a community that makes self-reflective stories about these avian dino things

so the nature of the model gives insight to the person with a box strapped to their head i feel very critter like. like i've sort of been thinking of vr as critter time something dissociative, i kind of just like running off into my own world i'm asocial and feel a sort of natural detachment from interactions with people the thought of a sentient subhuman species carries traits that reflect in myself some kind of gender euphoria?? floofy ass fkn wizardly ass rat bro sure i see so many hypersexual human and furry models and they just don't work for me at all

fkn normies and NO there's no rikkor porn i'm not checking think i am pretty ace tho splains a bit

glimpsed nirvana while i was looking for rikkor-related bullshit god this is an obsession fucks sake it's just fluffy goobers dicking around and fuck you fasjnjijnfuck you dude just this game slaps absolute nuts bro it's also part of a community that just does shit like this semi-regularily why would you not this shit has me oh my god like you can sum all the above up as abstract human characterization vrchat devs do in fact have shit they need to get together before we get ready player one or some shit but i'd buy stocks if the idea was inherently profitable

01/09/26
something i ask myself every day - is this shit embarassing
like
i think so
i really don't know what to say about it 
capturing dancing in vr is so much fun
and it's just satisfying to have movements synced to this shit
and i like practicing and understanding what a music's feel is
like this is just what i do playing/listening to sets
i don't play sets for anyone really buy yk
uh

anyways this is completely unnecessary figured i'd comment tho
i will continue to post cringe

16/09/26
ramble about escapism 
(the ep but also the not ig lol)
idk i'm bored

i really admire music's ability to convey a prolonged experience -
the tones themes and moods that go with a part of your life
lets you indulge and understand what you couldn't immediately see being a part of it
it turns into a disappointing problem though
it's like the analysis of it takes away from your ability to immediately understand people
like it's the constant export of your being to something you're passionate about
just my experience tho so eh

escapist is one i made in high school for a project that i never finished
kinda just cooked on it about 4 years later and it turned into that 
tones in the drops and scratchy midsections go with the comfort dissociation gives
like i wanted to make it painful to hear only to have what it was saving for constantly 
remind you of a failure
no the homer's final journey sample isn't about domestic abuse my dad's a sweetie <3

memory was one i practiced with a jazz group like a decade back
was the most hypnotic bassline and i couldn't really find anything else that had that form
no idea what the name was as it was one of those things where they play it with you,
word of mouth style
based on some kind of either african or latin polyrhythm i don't remember
this is about the best i can immortalize it i've had no luck finding the source

sattelites kinda communicates the musical communication idea through a spacecraft analogy
i don't really know how to describe it 
also a lot of "what if the proobes could feel uoah?"
honestly i listened to that bassline enough to give me what you could call a mental illness

idk why fearless is not full volume but it kinda fits with the fearlessness i was trying 
for so i asdngf

probably won't analyse macrohypnotics it's basically just about friends being douchebags
all i'll say is that resonate just came out like that dude like the fuck fkn evil thing
completely fucked up the first half too that's why it starts like that ouehugh

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